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[cantescapethestorm]

 I think I might have done something.....I don't even know if it's bad but I did something.

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[the_ambassador]

What do you think you did?

[cantescapethestorm]

Swear to absolutely keep this between us??

[the_ambassador]

Of course. Always.

[cantescapethestorm]

Okay. Because my cousins will be...you know, how they are if they knew.

But I might have, inadvertently, given HAL the idea of a...sexual relationship. With me.

[the_ambassador]

Yes, I know how they are.

Ooooh. I see. And he's interested in exploring it?

[cantescapethestorm]

I think so? But how do I know that he actually is and that it's not just, you know, an experiment of sorts?

[the_ambassador]

Ask him. He'll be honest with you.

[cantescapethestorm]

You know that's the easy thing to do, right?

[the_ambassador]

A lot of the time with HAL, and with JARVIS and EDI, it's the only thing to do.

Do you have feelings for him?

[cantescapethestorm]

I have some feelings for him, obviously. We're good friends and I like being around him. He's comforting in his own sort of way, you know?

It's my own fault for even thinking about the whole libido thing.

[the_ambassador]

That isn't exactly what I meant. I mean, we all love HAL. We don't all...have, feelings, for him.

...Aaaaaah, so that's where this came from.

[cantescapethestorm]

I don't know. How do you even answer that sort of question?

Yeeaah.

[the_ambassador]

...Honestly, I've no idea. I'm probably the last person that should be asking anyone that question. [Since she apparently suppresses her feelings so deeply that she isn't even consciously aware of having them.]

[cantescapethestorm]

... Oh really? Who said that?

[the_ambassador]

No, nothing, it's--nothing.

So, HAL. What are you gonna do, do you think?

[cantescapethestorm]

No no no! You can't say that and then drop it. Spill.

I don't know, what would you do?

[the_ambassador]

It's not important, honey, this is about your situation.

What would I do? I'd look at it from all angles, chew on it for days, then after I'd processed everything I'd decide if I could handle having a sexual relationship with a friend, and go from there.

[cantescapethestorm]

Yeah but we've been friends forever. We switch, remember? Or blend, if we have to.

Yeah, that's what I should do. I mean, with Hal it would be...easier in some ways but harder in others. I guess I just need to see if the pros outweigh the cons.

And then as soon as I say that, I feel bad. Shouldn't I just feel like I want to? You know, not overthink it to death?

[the_ambassador]

I don't think agree at all, but then, I've never been the sort to spontaneously take a lover. Even if that's all it is, ultimately, it has weight with me, and I have to think about things that have weight.

Like, for instance, that I am apparently in love with Howie and have been for years.

[cantescapethestorm]

I haven't been either, at least not a lover who wasn't my boyfriend first.

Well, yes. What clued you in?

[the_ambassador]

Aaah, so you've never actually had a lover. Just boyfriends.

...Did everyone know but me?

[cantescapethestorm]

Yeah, does that make me lame?

Oh, uh, no? I mean, only those of us close to you knew.

[the_ambassador]

It absolutely does not make you lame. Anyone that says otherwise is an idiot.

...Which is most of you, which means that I'm really that clueless.

[cantescapethestorm]

Thank you.

I meant only me and Demi but...we just figured you weren't ready to face it yet.

[the_ambassador]

You're very welcome, but you don't need to thank me; it's true. There's nothing wrong with preferring a committed relationship over casual sex, just like there's nothing wrong with having casual sex.

Ah, well, that's better than...everyone. I'm honestly still not sure I'm ready to face it. He basically just...told me how I felt. Who does that? Oh, right, Howard Stark.

...I'm rambling. Sorry.

[cantescapethestorm]

I don't think there's anything wrong with casual sex. I'm not against it at all, I've just never done it.

That's how all Starks are, sweetie.

Wait, he seriously told you how YOU felt?

[the_ambassador]

I know you don't, but I imagine there are those that call you a prude or...whatever, because they're idiots.

I know.

Yes! It's so frustrating! That isn't how it's supposed to happen!

[cantescapethestorm]

You mean like some of our closest friends?

Sometimes I seriously have to wonder about him. At times he forgets that we're not robots, you can't just program us or...there's a way to go about these things!!

[the_ambassador]

Especially them. It's no wonder poor Phillip has such terrible self-esteem.

And he's so calm about it! Like it's so...like it's just...like it's something that happens every day!

And maybe it does, for him. But it doesn't for me.

[cantescapethestorm]

He does? D:

Want me to go and smack him upside the head?

[the_ambassador]

Well, he's certainly not confident. :-(

No. Well, yes, I'd love for you to, but. I'm making entirely too big of an issue out of it.

[cantescapethestorm]

I've noticed he's a little self conscious at times but...aww, I don't like that.

I'm still going to do it without telling him why.

[the_ambassador]

I don't either. He's a sweetheart. An odd duck sometimes, yes, but so what? Aren't we all?

You're the best, honey.

[cantescapethestorm]

He really is but that makes him who he is. Maybe it just seems weird because his parents are so...serious.

So are you, sweetie.

[the_ambassador]

I suppose we're all products of who we were raised by.

Well, I try.

[cantescapethestorm]

Yes, we are.

<3

I'll keep you updated on the HAL thing.

[the_ambassador]

Do that, sweetheart. And whatever you do, just make sure it's what makes you happy.